Tuesday 29 October 2013

Surgery day.

This was one of the hardest days I have had in my life so far. Not to sound over dramatic, but it was brutal.
My heart raced, I was nauseated, my mind was going a mile a minute. For the whole 8 hours.

The worst part was that we had a misunderstanding on the time and were expecting him out of the OR hours before  he came out. This, of course, caused needless tears and more stress and anxiety until we found out it would be hours more. Then we were able to settle into more waiting.

Our day, although stressful, was a positive one. We knew he was in great hands, we knew the surgery was a must, we knew that he had gone into this a very healthy baby boy. He had amazing chances, and all odds seemed in his favour. The surgeon came out to talk to us, he told us the surgery was very successful and they expected a full recovery. Hector did wonderfully. 

After the hours and hours of waiting we were allowed to go see him, It was supper time. We had passed him to the OR nurse at 8 in the morning. He was hooked up to more wires, lines, and tubes, then space on his little body. Having worked in the hospital setting for years, this didn't scare me as much as I thought. Although, it being my own child allowed the silent tears to make their way down my cheeks.

He had a bunch of episodes of SVT throughout the evening, the Dr's told us that it wasn't surprising. His little heart was very irritated from surgery, but we should expect that he would be fine from there on out. They try non-medical intervention to bring the heart rate down first, holding a bag of ice on my baby's face was the last thing I was wanting to see, but amazingly it worked.

It was the longest day I have experienced, I am so very grateful that we are past it.

Wednesday 23 October 2013

Because I am missing many a singing Sundays.

Have you even felt extremely attached to a song, nothing you can explain. You just love it and the more time passes and the more you hear it, the more you feel from it?
I know I have felt strangely in love with this song, little did I know just how much I would relate it to my current situation. Or just how much it would calm me when I could feel my heart race, thinking of the reality we face tomorrow.

I know I have posted it before; 

Amazing song, that has yet to disappoint.

Tuesday 22 October 2013

Welcoming Hector.

We welcomed our little heart warrior, Hector Ulysses, on Oct 16. 
It was an amazing labour and delivery. I know I've said it before, but I really can't say enough for midwives. It made what could have been a very stressful situation, very smooth and natural. 

He was born at 12:37 pm, after about 3 hours of active labour, and a night of early labour that stopped just enough for us to get four hours of sleep! Something I had never experienced before, but everyone told me afterwards that third babies are little tricksters :)

He had his atrial balloon septostomy about two hours after birth, it was pretty incredible. They did it right in the PICU and Dave and I were able to sit and watch the proceedure. We also found out that Hector does have a small VSD (ventricle septum defect) that will be closed during his surgery. Something they couldn't see in utero.

He has been a champion nurser, everyone is very happy with that. It gives him a major advantage going into surgery, and I am so pleased. It was something I was worried about, as I have found breastfeeding to be such a wonderful experience in the past with my two older boys. I was also worried because a lot of cardiac babies don't do well with breastfeeding, as they tire easily.

It was, and is, something that is very important to me. So without that stress, this process has been going as smooth as it really can. 

With surgery coming up in a couple days I do find myself a tiny bit more on edge, but I know we are in spectacular care. The team of nurses, doctors, and specialists are just amazing. They have really made this easier, even the smallest of things have made really hard days seem less large. 

More then anything, our family and friends have made this transition into Hector's life as normal as it can be. We love you more then words can express, thank you for everything you are doing. We really couldn't do this without you. 

I will keep updating as things progress. I apologize for the lack of grammatically correct sentences, as I am updating from my phone. Isn't technology wonderful!






Sunday 13 October 2013

my rock -singing Sundays

This week I thought it was very important to acknowledge someone of utmost importance in my life. He has been my rock, through thick and thin. He has made a family with me, where there was just me trying to figure out where I fit in the world. He makes me laugh, every single day.
He makes every bit of my life so very worth it.
I love you Dave.